I’m happy for that; no longer I’m I talking to myself in the emptiness.
But something seems quite off.
Something that makes my heart thump sickly, my head spin, and my stomach rumbles loudly.
It is about the men I am with right now, the ones that I think of as friends and comrades.
I enjoy their obsessions, their goals and of course their pointless conversations that I always ignore due to lack of interest.
But if I were to use a number scale I would find out that I am not concern for Pilot, Engie or Captain, only Snippy which confuse me deeply.
I like Snippy. He is the first person I have ever met since my days of roaming alone in the wastelands and the first person I think of as my friend but Snippy is the one that makes my heart sick, my head spin and my tummy rumble.
I study Snippy a lot and collect notes in my sketch trying to figure him out. What I learn is that when he reacts to something so do I. Of course everyone have reactions towards another person’s action but when Snippy reacts to something, I don’t say a word and my face is blank I just grab my sketch and quickly doodle, if I don’t I’ll go paranoid.
All I do is draw. Mostly things I see from my point of view, but lately I have been drawing random places, scenes….horrible…. nightmares… sometimes from my dreams or even during the day.
I don’t know where they came from. Could these drawings been part of my past life? What I live through? I don’t have the answers to that. No one does.
So I just draw them down and turn the page quickly as I could to draw something that will make me forget the strange sketch from the last page. It has been a routine I have been following lately.
I get these…images when Snippy reacts to something. Sad, scared, angry….anything.
I wonder… are these drawings that I am producing daily into my sketchbook… are they coming from him? Are these his memories? His personal nightmares? His life?
Is this is why I get these images in my head? Why I feel sick to everything Snippy feels? I think… somehow Snippy's memories are in my head.
Nah, that’s crazy! I’m crazy! XD
I have been hanging out with Pilot and Captain far TOO long. Haha…..ha…
… but still….
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This is my reaction to RomApo. comic pg. 105.
Alexuiss has a way to completely mess with his reader's minds. 105 is REALLY interesting. Go read it if you haven't. Anyway enjoy!
i am now shipping them